what the hell was i thinking?

So, Secret and I have not been intimate for a minute. First, it was the move. Then, it was Secret getting ready for school and now we have both started back to work. Ugh! While talking one night, Secret said that she didn't want us to have phone sex. This is so that when we get together for my birthday, it'll be more intense and meaningful. I agreed. In haste, without thinking, I said 'well, that means no self-love either.'

She agreed. I don't know why, but she did. For those not in the know, I will not see her again until October. What the hell was I thinking? I mean, damn. I love her and would never disrespect our relationship so she don't have to worry about that. But, damn... It's a shame though. My first day at work, I told them I needed October 8-10 off. LOL! WDDDA?

I hope I remember that I can't kiss her in public. Otherwise, I'm gonna be in her like white on rice. I want her so bad. It

Makes. No. Sense.