Omg, what is going on in the universe? It seems karma is nipping at my heels. I was at one time a bit of a playa. Though I have never cheated, I have come very, very, VERY close. Most of the time though, I would date two or three folks at a time. I did a good job of juggling dates. Of the few I keep in contact with, none know that I was dating someone else. Trust and believe, I ain't telling.
Those folk are not the ones I'm most concerned about. It is the...how can I put this delicately. It is the FWB and the chicks with which I had "arrangements". Oh, and let's not forget the hit and quit chicks. These are the chicks endangering my relationship. Why? Because they have all of a sudden reappeared in some shape, form, or fashion.
The entire 4.5 years of being with Casino, not one every contacted me. Not one! Now, let me be honest. There were some girls between Shortcake and Secret. Most of which, were me trying to deal with my pain. I mean, the best way to get over your past girl is to get under a new one right?! Ha! Whoever came up with that needs to be shot and thrown into space.
Le sigh. I tried to self-medicate with girls. Now, I'm one of those people who doesn't change their number. Which is great for my family, cause they can always get in contact with me. It sucks when it comes to dealing with past girls because, well, they can get in contact with me. I also don't delete numbers (whole 'nother post).
These girls will call and try to get back in my pants. At first, I was flattered. I mean, what an ego boost. Then, I was confused. I mean, why all of a sudden am I getting these phone calls. Then I was frustrated. I mean, leave me the hell alone. If I told you yesterday in a text I'm seeing someone, then why send an email asking the same thing? Now, I'm worried. I mean, what if what if Sweet decides she's tired of the past coming in the present.
Or worse, what if she can't deal with the fact that at one point I was a bit of a garden tool. *wink, wink* Now, I can't say for certain it's karma but it's definitely something. I hear the exasperation in Secret's voice when she says 'who's this girl?' or 'is this a different girl?' or 'omg, baby, how many are there?'.
Now, I do feel some shame from my past. It's most uncomfortable having to explain this girl or that girl to her time and time again. It seems the closer I grew to her, the more these girls appear. Secret and I made a promise to always tell each other what's going on. We sometimes falter, but we mostly stick to it. But this script is getting old. Quick.
Secret told me to stop telling them I'm with someone because it only makes them want me more. If I tell them I'm single, they will either (A) wanna pick up our past thing or (B) try and lure me out of 'singledom.' It's lose/lose for me. When I say I'm with someone 8 times out of 10, the response is 'she don't have to know.'
I don't know y'all. I just don't know. I would like nothing for than for the past to stay in the past cause this shit
Makes. No. Sense.
Ooph. I had to walk away and come back to this one because it's a tough one and a very familiar one. Girls always swarm, without fail, the minute I'm taken or not looking. Secret's right about that.
ReplyDeleteI think it's time to start deleting the names off these numbers and then blocking them. Don't text and def do not answer phone calls. It's not a good idea to communicate with a jumpy, at all - not even to tell them you're taken now - unless you're discussing hooking up or test results. I take it you won't be talking about either, so lose them girls' numbers. You've moved on and away. Let them stay in the past and in whatever state you left them in. If not for your own sanity, do it for Secret's peace of mind.
I don't know I always thinking that saying you're seeing someone to someone trying to get with you suggests ( even if its only in their head) that is you were not seeingthat someone they'd have a chance, I prefer to let them know I'm not interested, end of story.
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