So, I cooked for Shortcake. I think everything turned out okay. Anywho, cooking meant a trip to the grocery store. So, we go to the store and I have my list. I grab a buggy (I know baby, it's not a buggy it's a cart) and make my way into the store. We go to the produce to pick up some green beans and an onion. They are out of green beans and before I could do anything she has asked to produce guy to get some more. As we make our way up and down the aisles, I am picking up what we need and putting it in the cart.
There isn't much conversation cause I'm focused. I'm on a mission. I'm shopping and Shortcake is pushing the cart. I don't know how but in the midst of a short conversation I call her baby. In public. In the middle of the grocery store. (I didn't realize until she pointed it out later.) We continue shopping. When I'm done, I check out. No big deal, right?
Over dinner, Shortcake tells me I called her baby in the store. My heart stopped. I begin to apologize. She was like it's not a big deal. I feel horrible. She's like no really it's cool. She tells me that it felt so natural to be shopping with me. Her pushing the cart. Me with my list. It felt right.
So, last night it comes up again. Shortcake tells me that we got a couple of looks while in the store. I tell her I missed all of that. She said that people can tell we are together. That we look like a couple. She said we act like a couple. I try to be on my p's and q's with her but obviously I have failed. She said that if we don't want people to know that we are together, we have to be careful about how we interact with each other.
This coming from the same girl who kissed me in my driveway. It just amazes me how comfortable I am with her. She's so right. Being with her, feels natural. It feels right. I catch myself winking at her. So random. I have noticed that I rarely call her by her name. It's usually baby, babe, or some other pet name (Shortcake included). And I have no desire to change that.
She refers to me as Zeus' mommy. I told her I wanted a dog and she said you have one. What you don't want Zeus? I love the little guy. Me, Shortcake, and Zeus. Our little familial unit makes so much sense that it
Makes. No. Sense.
I wish I could be like you out in public, but I am very self conscious when I go out with Renee. This past weekend when we were in the store, she asked me, "Why are you walking so far ahead of me? Are you trying to make it look like we aren't together?" The funny thing is when I go out with Bookie (a close friend), we probably look more like a lesbian couple because we are always laughing and giggling up under each other, but it never occurs to me how this would look to other people...and the part that really makes no sense is that I am more concered with black people noticing us and what they would think more than anybody else. I don't understand. I think I need to blog about this. Lol... What did you cook for Shortcake? Talk to you soon! :)
ReplyDeletewe had fried fish, mac and cheese, green beans, and homemade biscuits. oh and of course, sweet tea.
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