So, I often let my readers into my business. I love the responses I get cause yall keep it real with me. I love yall for that. So, I gotta be honest with yall and I hope yall continue to be honest with me.
*deep breath*
Lately, I have not been motivated to go to church. It takes so much energy for me to even think about going. I know, as your resident LGBT chaplain/reverend, I should want to go, but I don't. I think I'm going through burnout. I have spiritual conversations all day, everyday. The last thing I want to do is have yet another on Sunday morning.
I know I need a group of people to pour into me. But right now, I need and want that group of people to be like-minded, forwarding thinking LGBT people. I don't want any spiritual conversations, just conversations about politics, black issues, social justice...anything but religion. Have yall ever felt this way? How did you handle it?
I'm so confused, it
Makes. No. Sense.
I've been here. Sounds so very familiar. Im actually just recently starting to drift away from this feeling. I grew up in a household where church was just IT. Multiple times a week, Sunday morning, Sunday evening...church was everything. My dad is a pastor and our lives were structured around it.
ReplyDeleteThe older i got I realized that i was burned In Over Up and OUT. When i turned 20/21 (im 28 now) i just stopped going to church all together. I took the time to figure out whether or not it had anything to do with embracing my sexuality. It didn't. I was yearning for something else, something different. I still can't exactly explain what I felt I was missing. Maybe u said it right. I wanted a connection and conversation about 'other' stuff outside of spirituality. I wanted the fellowship that comes along with church...minus the sermon/choir/spiritual lessons.
I get it. I think it's a natural cycle that may come and go and come again or go away forever. Could be the beginning of some type of internal shift for you...? Just ride it out and see what u get from it.
I stopped going to church for many many years and when God saw fit for me to go again, I did.
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