and end scene (ya might need kleenex)

I have been delaying writing this one because I knew it would make me sad. But alas, all things must come to an end.

We slept in Sunday. We were supposed to go to the Greek Festival, but I woke up feeling some kinda way and didn't wanna go. I piddled around the house, drinking coffee. I think the both of us were stealing glances at the clock wondering where the hell the time was going, trying not to be sad. We cuddled on the couch for a while and then my stomach was telling me it was empty.

We grabbed some wings from one of her favorite spots. We ate, mostly in silence. After eating, Secret said 'let's go lay down.' We did. We laid there and cuddled. Her back was to me and I knew she was crying on the other side because I was crying on my side. I held her tight. I wanted to stay right where I was, with her in Texas. We did say anything, but at times like these you don't have to.

I swear time sped up and before we knew it 4:00p came. It took every ounce of strength I had to say "it's 4:00." I felt her spirit fall. We knew it was coming, but why did it have to come so soon. I slid out of bed and she turned over to where I was laying and wept. My heart broke. I wanted more than anything to say fuck it and stay. I watched her in tears and in pain. There wasn't shit I could do because I felt the same way.

We got dressed in silence. She whispered 'you got everything' and all I could do was nod my head. At that moment, I did have everything but I was preparing to leave the most important behind. I said bye to Bella by rubbing her ears and we walked to the car. I blinked and we were at the airport.

My chest was heavy. I wanted to tell her to turn around. We pulled up to the drop off area and I just sat there. I didn't want to get out of the car. I didn't want to look at Secret because I knew it would make me break down. So, I just sat there. I wanted to kiss her, hold her, hug her tight. She said 'I love you' and my heart could no longer take it.

I choked out an I love you and got out of the car. I went to get my backpack out of the backseat and she grabbed my hand. I bit my lip to keep from bursting out in tears. I whispered 'I want to stay'. She said 'get back in the car'. I wanted to. I held her hand tight and stared into the most beautiful eyes in the world.

"Don't go" she said. My heart broke. Her hand slipped slowly out of mine. I closed the door and just stared at her in the car. Then, I turned and walked into the airport. Tears ran down my face as I checked in. "It's hard, huh?" some random lady said to me as she handed me tissue. I just nodded my head as I accepted her offer.

I got through security and walked around the airport some. I didn't want to be still because then I would start to miss her more. When I got to my gate, I joined two guys in the midst of a football conversation. We talked football til our plane boarded. I was headed back to NC. I had a great time with her. She is wonderful. My love for her is growing by leaps and bounds, but having to be a part from her

Makes. No. Sense.