naked (a poem)

im naked
im standing here waiting
waiting on you to come hold me
i will submit to you, you dont have to control me
i can not help but look down and see my flaws
i can only see my imperfections, all that is wrong
so i stand naked, nervous, fidgeting
this venerability is killing me
i want to be pleasing to you but i wonder
what if my scars are too much for you
what if my calluses are ugly to you
i am a broken woman, pieced back together, barely
maybe im too fragmented, too much of me has been lost
what about my worn places, spots smooth from overuse
what about my knees, black from begging people to love me
so im standing here, naked, nervous
im so scared i want to cry
ive opened up to you, you have my secrets
raw, unedited, in places where no one has been
my heart is beating so fast, i think im gonna pass out
im seeing spots, breathing hard, palms sweating
oh my, here you come, here i stand
you see me
i stand here
head down
ashamed
naked
imperfect, flawed, cracked
here i am, this is me
naked